The circle of life. Numbers. Round and round. A straight forward march.
I used to have friends. They all went away. Slowly, one by one. Some quickly, others stayed on. One. Two. Three. Four.
I remember when I was little, in school. When study meant you read a book marked science which would read like an exciting mystery novel. You read through once, and boom, off you go to play street cricket and kick a football till it went pop.
Back then, I had friends. Not many. Four, maybe five. But that was my world. You had one group marked friends, and another marked other people.
Then somewhere along the line, we grew up. It became best friends, friends, acquaintances, other people I know, unknown/general/misc, and enemies.
Then coworkers came into the picture.
I remember when I used to have just friends. Somewhere along the line, they drifted away, went along their merry way. And I stayed exactly where I was. Sure I would try to go to the other place in one’s life. But we always… How does that song go… How come I end up where I started… I stay still, and I face life’s difficult questions. Whether they turn or jump on you, you push them back, sometimes you don’t have anything to show for your effort, sometimes a little goes all the way. And you think you progress.
But you’re just standing there. Even if you run, you end up where you started. And all you have to show for it are numbers. Eighteen, nineteen, twenty, twenty-one, twenty-two.
Things change. You stay the same. Everyone drifts apart. Meet new people. Learn new things. Run. Rest. Relax.
Breathe. No more running. Now you have friends.
But you look up - at where you thought you had friends. But it’s some strangers - people who you barely knew yesterday - and today they’re all you have left. You don’t know them much, but they’re all you have. You fall backwards into their waiting arms. You can’t trust everyone. You must trust someone. Why not this stranger?
Standing 22 yards away, hasn’t batted in 10 matches, looks like a foreigner in his batting gear: he’s your number 11.
Sure, this innings will go on longer. You have faith, ‘A little luck,’ you hope . After all, all it needs is to make another number go up by one. Every little while. Keep the scoreboard ticking over.
One more statistic. One more memory.
One year over in Infy - Jul 2008.